you didnt know it, but your missionary has been lost in peru for about 5 days.... homeless. and to be quite honest, its been humbling and discouraging, and satan has really been working on me. on us. i think its cause he knows that we are truly on the lords errend and doesnt want this work to go forward. but we know better. . . so we had some trouble with our pensionista....again. my companion hna downs has had some health problems here in good old peru and has been to the hospital a few times so her diet is very sensitive and she cant eat a lot of things. our pench knew this, yet still fed her things she could not eat. and would get offended when she wouldnt eat. there was a day when she told her that her sickness was just in her head.... and that kind of hurt hna downs feelings cause she just wants to be the very best misionary. hurtful words. also, the bathroom leaked into the down stairs, and mold started growing, and she waited til it was bad enough to say anything, so the church would pay for it. so..... we are moving out. ok we MOVED out. we are no longer living there. however, we dont have an alternitave either. we have been house hunting for the last 5 days. it has been a long discouraging five days. however, it has its perks too. I have been staying at the Presidents house! in the mission home! complete with carpet and everything. last nght we had Taco night, and invited an hermana who is struggling to enjoy tacos together. best taco ive ever had in my ilfe. i ate the presidents favorite cereal which happens to be my favorite too. captai crunch. and they have peanut butter! WE ATE WAFFLES SUNDAY MORNIGN! (shout out to my daddy who would make waffles every sunday as well). and it was the biggest tender mercy! I MISS AMERICAN FOOD! IM SO SICK OF RICE!!!! any ways...... he has a very nice home. and we have been comfortable. President plays guitar so we have been having a lot of music. in fact, today we played a lot of music together, preparing for the christmas program in the plaza. getting excited for that.
but, even though it has been nice, it has been discouraging too.
i had this sereal moment, it was like an out of body experience. the elders found a room. a small room. a very very small room. and us hermanas didnt have very much faith that three beds, three desks and a dresser would fit in this tiny room, but the elders had a lot of faith in it, and we trusted them. we cleaned it, scrubbed the bathroom and everything ready to live there.
so we were moving out all our furniture. we were sitting on the side walk with our bed pieces, drawers, and other room elements strewn across the sidewalk, waiting for the elders to come back. just sitting there. like bumbs. three sad hermanas. with out a home. with this discouraged burden, and i remember thinking,
i am a ninteen year old white girl, sitting on a side walk, in a foreign country, with a foreign language, confused, lost, unsure, and i just wanted to go home. TO A HOME! not to a dark cramped room with hard floor. i just looked at my self in the mirror i was holding, and thought of my warm home in utah. or texas. with carpet and parents who love me with warm open arms. i just wanted a mom hug. a daddy hug. a bethany, spencer, hailey or dannielle hug. or a mike hug. (or a kiss that would work too...) really just ANYTHING! it was so discouraging. i felt like Mary and joseph as they searched for a room. as the apostles of christ as they dropped everything thety had, their nets and followed christ with nothing but a testimony and the clothes on their back. these thoughts kept me going. these thoughts put things in perspective for me and i can do hard things.
at this point, we have three options. but we cannot see them until tomorrow tuesady, so until then, we are sleeping at the presidents house.
which is fun too. I gave hna marler )(the wife) a foot rub the other night, and last night, she surprised me with one back! yay! also, she asked me to dye her hair for her..... have i ever done that before? no.... but she doesnt know that. shhhhhh ill let you know how it goes.
funny moments: saw a jungle man cutting his lawn with a machette. supper funny
our old investigatior was avoiding us. saw him walking on the other side of the stree.t when he caught sight of us he bolted the other way and hid behind a tree until we were done talking to this lady, and finally when he was sick of waiting, he looked around, found a bag on the ground, and put it on his head to hide his face, and he walked right past us..... he is about 62 years old..... and we were laughing SO HARD!
oh well. its his salvation.
also, i cannot believe chaz is an elder now. like a real live missionary!!!! HOW AWESOME!!!!! i love my family. i am so blessed.
con much amor
hna Gonzales
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