Miss Moe's Missionary Memoirs: The Lord's Will, Not Ours

dearest family and friends. it was a good week. another blessed week.

this sunday we took the sacrament for the first time in what feelsl ike AGES! and my testimony of hte power of the sacrament was strengthened again this week.

Restoration in all things: impressions that i wrote down after sacrament.

how i felt to take the sacrament again after 2 weeks. i feel a difference. its like a restauration. how i SHOULD feel. i flet relieved and FULL of gratutude. just absolytely FULL of gratitude that my Heavenly Father has forgiven me. i know what i need to work on to be better. i know ive made concious mistakes. i had my many moments where i didnt choose the right and to feel that sense of "its going to be ok cause i forave you. i forgave you even before you repented but thank you for doing your part. here. have the spirit to guide you this week. maybe we can do better." i just fgeel graeful. love and RESTORED in how it should be. i cant imagine going longer than 2 weeks with out the atonement.

later that day we had a miraculous fireside. the long awaited, very planned, spiritual night of Music, mormon messages and talks by recent converts and reactivated members. it was such a special night. i could not believe how well it turned out. the spirit was SO STRONG! adn we had 9 investigators go. ... well 9 that i could find. also an old investigator from el bosque went too! more than 800 people went. there was standing room only and they even added on an outside tent thing to fill and they watched from a tv outside. we marched in from the back singing called to serve and then we sang a version of o my father to the tune of come thou fount and that was a powerful way to start the night. then we showed mormon messages and had the special numbers. i did my song with my friend hermana mason who also plays the ukulele. we combined i love to see the temple with keep the commandments and the harmonies ROCKED!!!! it was beautiful. the other numbers came together very well too. an elder sang Bring him home from le mis ( as in bring them home to the temple) and others elders played violins. it was just classy ok., JUST CLASSY! and i was SO HAPPY! some things i learned.

Choir of missionaries from fireside

sometimes, you just gotta quit doing your own will and take yourself out of the equation and stand back, be still adn KNOW that He is in control NOT YOU. this isnt YOUR WORK. its HIS!!! respect it. and trust. and He will make it 100 times better than you can even imagine. PROMISE! EVERY TIME! i wish i could tell you the hassels that came about and how it all just came together in the end. for example, i felt like a sister needed to participate but coulndt see how or where she would fit. at the last minute, she sang with a group of sisters. Gods will. completed. one elder got transferreed to the furthest area of the mission so he couldnt participate. so we had to find other elders to do a number with 2 days in advance!!! well, The will of God took place again and an elder got transferred to our zone from a whole other MISSIOn AND HE HAPPNS TO PLAY GUITAR! and his comps HAPPEN TO SING REALLY GOOD! but we know it isnt happen stance.... adn they performed amazingly. one of the speakers didnt end up getting BAPTIZED!!!! we were a ittle discouraged... but ah hermano, who reactivated about 6months ago spoke. adn after he spoke i KNEW that HE WAS SUPPOSED to speak. not the other guy. it was allllll guided by God. we see it as fail because it is not our will but when all is said and done, the spirit is ther and the testimony remains that HE IS IN CONTROL. just be still and know that he IS. it was such a beautiful night. i felt the spirit very strong. it called me to repentence and i reflected even more on things i need to be better at. the mission knows how to keep you humble. it truly does. i felt like Heavenly Father was pleased with the work we had done and he accepted it. and i was at peace.

Jesus went to church for the first time yesterday too. and the teacher asked for a volunteer to give the last prayer, and HE GAVE IT! and i wish i could tell you how beautiful it was. he was so sincere, so brave to pray in front of a class his first day. and his prayer was so sincere. he said in his prayer that he hopes to become a better man and come closer to god for his daughters. i was so full of joy for this hermano, i was moved to tears. and so was my companion. we opened our eyes and looked at each other with tears in our eyes and just knew. he is escogido.

it was a good week. i am so blessed. and i stand confused in HOW.

i love you all

i love this work

i love this mission

con amor

hermana gonzales