What it means to have a Savior

Dearest Family and friends.

 

ITS A GIRL.... ok obv.... i have an amazing new companion. she is ABSOLUTELY AWESOME!!!!

her name is Hna Rejala. she is from Paraguay, she is 20 years old, she speaks ENGLISH!!! oh no.... when will i ever have a comp where im forced to use spanish. COME ON! but she is helping me a lot on my spanish. just corrections here and there. hey no body is perfect, even after 9 months..... she loves clothes, shoes, soccer, running, chocolate, music, being goofy, laughing, TALKING, and is like, a better, paraguayan version of me. like mother like daughter. she is  awesome. she really opened up to me right off the bat. she told me all about her past. she has a hard past. her mother has skitsofrenia, would beat her and yell at her. she has a sister who died, a brother on a mission and a leziban sister who is very active in the church. this girl, has seen and been through it all! she is definutely a tomb boy, and she is always telling me (in her cute accent) "just be a tough girl". and in reality, that is just what i have needed to hear.

 

 

 

this week, we had 2 service projects, a big ward activity, and teaching this sweet girl the obra de salvacion!. it was kinda crazy week. only a little bit of stress when NONE of the members showed up to help our recent convert move, and when the vidio for the ward activity didnt work, (saved the day with a back up dvd i keep in my backpack always.... thank you holy spirit) and i didnt realize how you really have to explain EVERYTHING to a new missionary. getting her to focus is fun. she loves to talk. and to top off an outstanding week, sunday we went by all our investigators to bring them to church and NOT ONE CAME! we went by 4 families. and got to church JUST IN TIME to watch EVERYONE (except us) taking the sacrament..... awesome. how am i supposed to tell my investigators to go to church if I CANT even get there on time... UGH! but its fine right? .... i did my best not to act stressed in front of my poor brand spanking new companion. and i did hold my cool pretty well. she didnt act stressed, so i think that means i hid it well. lol OH YA! we also had to move rooms AGAIN this week cause now we are 2. not three, which means less space which means less money which means move. AND our pensionista is going on vacation for 2 weeks so..... guess whos searching for a pench again. this girl.... some times i feel a littel bit of a burden and cant remember to do everything and the things i DO remember.... well. i do my best.

 

 

 

my testimony has grown this week. i have learned more of what it means to have a SAVIOR. someone who saves you from yourself. when youre burried really deep and you cant seem to breathe or smile, or have charity...... the savior steps in and somehow, i smile. somehow i give big warm hugs.... somehow i make people feel loved.... and i know its not me. cause there is nothing of me left to give. its completely the savior. wow! he really is there. its hard to see in teh moment, but he is. and through his grace and mercy, he makes up for what i lack. and i lack a lot. training really shows you all your weaknesses. and i hope and pray that i can make her to be a better missionary than i am. im sure thats what moms say when they have a child. i hope i can raise this one to be better than me. its A LOT OF PRESSURE! whew!

 

but we are doing good. just hanging in there. doing our best. keep smiling and laughing, and loving the people. i am doing all i can and i know that is all that hte savior expects. all that he wants. and that is why our loving Heavenly Father gave us his son. so that we can be perfected by Him. THrough him.

AND THANK HEAVENS!!!!! cause i cant do it a lone. and sometimes i feel a little alone.

 

but we are doing good. i love my companion. she is wonderful and strong, and humble, and willing, and happy and has such young faith. i love it! we already have a good bond. a good unity. and we give each other hugs and kisses before bed and she is so sweet! i call her "hija". i say "vamos hija" (lets go daughter) and she obeys. heheheh she calls me "mami". and we love each other.

 

i love you all.

i know that the Savior is very much aware of us. He loves us so much and is patient with us. i know that everything happens for a reason and what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.

 

hide the tears, seguir adelante. and just love everyone to death. cause they deserve it.

 

with all the love and affection in my heart,

Hna Gonzales